What this is...

Ten years ago, I started drinking. Three hundred and sixty-four days ago, I had my last drink. 

I didn't really do a lot of the things I should have done -- although, in recovery, there are no shoulds -- in my first year of sobriety. I didn't have a sponsor. For the first six months, I was just dry. I didn't keep a record of how I felt, or of what was going on -- externally, internally, real, imagined. I didn't articulate the day-to-day shifts, the tiny changes that let me know that I'm recovering, the moments that remind me that something is happening. 

For my second year, I want to try something different. I want to write down what happens and how I feel about it. Being able to tell the story as it's unfolding is a way for me to understand what's going on, a way to translate a big mess of events and feelings and thoughts into a recovery. 

We'll see what happens....